Monday, November 28
INCOMPLETE.
Empty spaces
Fill me up with holes
Distant faces
With no place left to go
Without you
Within me
I can't find no rest
Where I'm going Is anybody's guess
I tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete
Voices tell me I should carry on
I am swimming In an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby It's written on your face
You still wonder If we made a big mistake
I tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete
I don't mean to drag it on
But I can't seem to let you go
I don't want to make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go
(oh no)
I tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is
Incomplete
Incomplete
7:09 PM
Thursday, November 24
the past is real.
scars reminds us that the past is real. so real, and so true. ((: at times how you wish you got all what and want. but reality that is, it's fake. it's false. you'd never get what you desire unless you work for it i guess... i ain't sure...
well. we started talking again on sunday. msn, phone. but was a pretty short one. then followed by monday, tuesday, wednesday, today... and we got back together. i definately did hesitated for a while. but, it's alright. we talked things out, and talked things through. now everythings just fine. ((; and i'm glad it is now. i surely would not want to brood bout what happened. cos was a total denial and bluff.
was a total turn off thing towards me. i tried to avoid it, but it kept coming back. many, many times i tried to leave it, but after awhile, it floats back into my mind again. you and me. with no other people. and i can't keep my eyes off you.
things are back. but there's still lots for us to catch up. i don't know why. but
it just seem so yesterday. but i'm thankful. and i promise you i'll treasure you...
1:47 PM
Friday, November 18
that book.
was a pretty heavy morning for me. i don't know why. but my heart sank so deep the moment i got out of my house. and i was all heavy and felt so moodles and restless. i asked myself: what's wrong? it couldn't be him. nor could it be my emotions getting all over my mind.
and so, i thought maybe that it could be the bio presentation or the report books. that book. gawsh. it's total horror for many. well, somesort, i believe that. i don't know how come i just let imaginations rule over me sometimes. and sometimes, i just don't know what on earth i really am thinking which cause so much misery and pain. but i must admit i'm recovering. yes i know. some are suprised and shocked. but hey, it's me. nathania. i'm strong and courageous remember? haha. ((:
and i'm always the one who brings you guys joy. so definately, i wouldn't be sad and stressed too. i've cried it all out the past two days. no more tears flow down my eyes already. ever since yeterday, i realised i was strong. i realised i've matured and grown.
though, i'm still left clueless and unanswered. i pray and really wish him the best in relationships to come. and for his O's next year. and i want to thank apple, cai ying, calean, shima, dexter and izwan for your continual encouragements and also your love! haha. man, you guys rock BIG time!
5:11 PM
Thursday, November 17
that yesterday.
yesterday. yes yesterday. i was all worried for you. you left without a notice. nor did you tell me what was wrong, and the next moment you left me. and that's all i know. i cried and had sleepless nights. i ate little. i called and smsed you to check out what was wrong. yet, no one told me. and you too! that's the thing.
to be frank, qayyum i really did miss you. but somehow is fading away. so far. but it's not my fault. i don't know what the hacked happened. but i was definately much more worried for you than i am angry. anyway. you were the one who chose me, wanted me, love me, care for me and put your whole heart in to me. but i don't know what really happened.
you denied it was your friends that made the huge impact and influence towards you. i don't know. maybe you indeed needed and want to have a break for awhile. i'm left clueless and unknown. now i learnt to be strong. i learn not to break nor to fumble. i learnt to be who i am last time. the strong brave girl that you knew. well, i'm gonna be that rose amongst the thorns. i will...
11:16 AM
